May 30, 2025

Insideout 2 was released last June and it will be part of the movies at the Railyard this summer, so we will grab the chairs and go be with others. Likely, I will like it and, in any case, when someone uses the name that came to me so many years ago, and they are successful at telling a sound story about a piece of the inner workings of our consciousness, I need to see it. And, this sort of little delay seems such a part of my life. There are delays, big and small, that seem to come from outright procrastination; and, there are delays, obvious and not, that seem imposed from the outside. Either way, what happens in the in-between is the stuff of experience; and, what I imagined I was “to do” becomes a reminder. I find that I can choose to be reminded to get whatever done because I still am connected, still want the thing; or, I realize that during the in-between, the thing is no longer congruent.

I look at this delaying from some of the traditions that I know and value. My Buddhist lens lets me see that a lack of possessive attachment or expectation is helpful and lessens self-criticism. My capitalistic lens urges goal-setting and achievement and increases focus on the current moment. My Sufi lens reminds me to polish the mirror of my heart and go deeply and that time is not relevant with the Beloved. My Protestant ethic connects my worth to my doing and sees something to be completed. My Interspiritual lens shows me that my worthiness is inherent, as is yours, and nothing need be done in this regard.

It is what it is, this delaying. I get to reexamine and reconsider, aligning with what matters to me in the present moment. Alleluia! Halleluia!